i was challenged with the idea of building your relationship with Jesus so you can be strong for those around you. not to show off or be boastful, but to be encouraging and of good spirit. i've really been taking that to heart the past few weeks and i feel like my quiet time has been so much stronger. i think i get excited about the idea of being strong for my future - my future husband and children (possibly). but i really WANT and NEED to be strong for NOW. i have so many young people looking up to me and colleagues depending on me. sometimes i feel overwhelmed because i feel like i am not the person of christ they need me to be.
at the same time, i want to be patient with this process. i want to make sure my heart is in check and i am doing it for the right reasons - not to be "better" than others or boastful, not to do it "to" them, but to do it for them. more than anything i believe my desire needs to come just by wanting that deeper relationship with the lord which will in turn grow me and hopefully be of influence to others.
god, i pray you grow me into the woman for christ you intend for me to be. i pray you strengthen my knowledge and understanding of you - allow me to live in and through you so that i can see this world through your eyes and with your heart. build me strong so i can be of YOUR influence to those around me. use me lord.
amen.
